Well we’ve filled this week, we’ve been blasted by jet airplanes at Maho beach, the children have swum under the stars, diving off the boat in the dark, totally fearless. We’ve met Royce an awesome kiwi who sorted us all out with surfboards (ours are on the boat!) even a longboard for me and then drove us round all the best breaks so we could finally do what we came here to do, go for a surf. We’ve been in a number of papers and apparently on breakfast television back in England!! We then had the backlash of the press and received numerous comments about what crap human beings James and I am. This I suppose is the dark side to all the wonderful, kind, supportive comments that we have received from all around the world and all the encouraging things people have said to us! We haven’t wanted this media attention, why would you want the world to know how your life is such a mess? Fortunately we are far away from the brunt of it and with minimal wifi it is easy to disconnect from. I know I would prefer to be in the paper for doing something well, not wrong.
At the moment it is 8 o’clock at night and whilst I sit writing this James and the children are lying on blow up ‘wahoos’ on the trampoline at the bow, they are planning on spending the night there, watching the stars and I must say it is incredibly comfortable, it’s so warm and relaxing gently rocking and listening to the sea lapping against the boat and a band playing music on the shore.
Tomorrow is our last day aboard La Vie and oh how wonderful it has been, Isla is definitely in love with this boat, it has acres of space on the bow for gymnastics, it doesn’t roll, we are definitely going to struggle to get her back on a monohull, where at most she can do a headstand on my lap. Heath has loved the freedom of being able to jump in the sea, whenever he feels the urge he just throws himself off, the side, front, back, it is endless. We have done lots of snorkelling and wildlife spotting amongst the mangroves. Tanya and Steve have made us feel totally at home on this boat and it has been a joy to be here and get to know them. We have had our independence through the kindness of Shrimpy, a legend on St Martin, who lent us a dinghy and outboard ‘patch’, it may have only gone at the speed of half a knot but it allowed us to be mobile and slowly get around St Martin. The children have loved him, taking it in turns to drive and clambering around, diving off the sides when he is tied up alongside La Vie.
The children are having a great time, James and I however are at a stalemate, we’re stuck, James wants to stay, wants to find another boat, whilst we wait for ours to turn up???? Wants to continue the journey and good on him but how? We’ve lost everything, it took us years to set everything up, get everything in place so that we were as ready as possible and it just went wrong. I am in a kind of limbo, I don’t want to give up and go home but I don’t see how we can keep going, how long do you wait for a boat to turn up? Will it ever come back? In the last four weeks we have heard nothing, not one hint of where it could be. We have so many people here ready and willing to take us out to it the moment we’ve got a fix on its position, we just need the damn position. So, as the weeks pass I begin to think let’s go home, not to wallow in self pity and the what could have been, but to get back some structure, some normality, I love my home, I love my family and my friends, I’d get my dog back and have long walks on wild beaches with him, we could go back to work, the kids back to school and slowly fix the damage. At the moment we have a fair split, boys to stay, girls to go, maybe. So what to do?
Will Marks who helped rescue us on Tilly Mint, is trying to do so again by setting up a just giving page for us and it is wonderful and heartbreaking to see our friends and people we don’t know donate their money to us. I am finding this hard to swallow! why should you guys help us, its not your fault or problem and my pride is definitely struggling. I’m not sure what the future holds at the moment we are living day to day, baby steps, so thank you Mark and thank you to all who have donated and if I do end up making millions off book and movie deals from all this then I promise I’ll pay you back.